emoing foe the whole day!!!!

(10/03)Start work le... Haiz... totally no mood to work, cannot really concentrate during work at all.. i still feel very emo... when at work, all my mind had been thinking abt dad.. i really wonder how is he right now.. really worried abt him alot.. i was even thinking abt applying for 1mth's unpaid so that i can visit him more often, but mum object to my suggestion cos i will be even more sad n emo if dad happen to pass away, i will surely cant be able to take it n wont be able to resume work after that 1mth, so is better to carry on with work, so that when im busy at work, i wont be thinking so much.. she do have her point here.. just that i really cant bear for dad to leave us soon... really very emo for e whole day... haiz... upon looking at e whole month's schedule, it made me more sian cos i saw that i need to work 13days before i got another off...very shag.. -_-

whole day at hospital...

Went to bring food to dad early in e morning cos ard afternoon period e hospital side is gg to transfer dad to mount alvernia hospice for treatment since they were more concentrated in his illness. when reached there, doctor came to examine him n den chat with me to update abt his condition.. realized that he has left with only a few weeks time, if not e longest might not be over 3mths since his condition has actually weaken for so much... now we really have to make use of his remaining time to make him happier...

visiting dad...

(07/03)Went to visit dad with mum n hao this evening.. awhile after we reached, my uncle aso reached.. 10mins later, my mum's side grandma n my cousins they all aso reached, but cannot came up due to overhead count le since max only 4persons for visiting.. so hao, renjie n i stayed at e foodcourt instead, while e rest of e relatives went up to visit dad.. ard half an hour later, we went to register again, this time successfully let us go up..lol... everyone was quite shocked to see dad become like that cos he used to be bubbly n yet now shrink till all bones... -_-

At 7+, ivy, xiu n her hubby came to visit dad as well.. at that time e nurse was giving medicine to him... after applying medicine for e nostrils, i could see that dad was very miserable, until he began to drop tears cos he say he cant breathe at all...very miserable... as if gg to die!!! very sad to see his expression like this...