PeRsOnaL ExPer|eNcEs...

(05/03) Went to visit dad togther with mum, hao n teck... before reaching his ward, social worker came to talk to us regarding my dad.. she told us that dad had actually shared with her alot of things which we all don't even know...


Dad had shared with her he's quite regret that he didn't really have much time to communicate with us again cos all along since we were young, he used to be very stern n strict with us, which results that we seldom share our feelings with him, instead we were much more closer with our mum.. he also shared that last time when he was still a taxi driver, almost every week he will drove us ard to eat n etc.. he said that he really missed those happy moments.. when we heard all these, we really cannot control our tears... all these things dad had never shared with us at all n we didn't even realise that he had actually enjoyed every moments of it.. even when im relating this to my blog now, i still can't control my tears again..


When we went in dad's ward, i noticed something is not quite right... i noticed that he was very pale n restless as compared to e past few days.. and when talk to him, he will either no response, or if not dunno wat he is talking abt.. i also noticed that he keeps staring straight at e wall as if someone is up there.. ask him issit can see those things, he refused to say.. yesterday when visit him he was never like tat one... yet today is totally different.. And also, he even request mum tmr to cook for him his fav food... 

When gg to e toilet outside e ward there, i experienced something unusual too...while waiting outside e toilet for mum, e whole area became very windy, as if is at outdoor... funny thing is that e whole place was air-conditioned, how can there be strong wind? i am still trying to figure out with mum... unexplained...

Now, i seriously hoped hard for miracle to happen to my dad to recover even if it requires me to shorten my lifespan also worth it... i been praying hard for him... i really hope that all of my prayers will be answered....