Bad Day!!!

What a bad day for me before starting work of e day... during briefing, dim n i kena like hell from her due to that stupid mascara that we didn't put in efforts to sell.. cos we were both aiming for sasa n cyber.. when go out n do sales, she came out to chase after me for tat mascara.. really damn damn stress cos is exactly being forced to sell.. haiz.. 

No matter what i said, sure she will have bad comments.. sian -_-

i missed u....

Dad, where are u at now?? i miss u really alot alot... u were always in my heart n mind all e time...  is already been nearly 2mths le yet i still cant managed to accept e fact that u were gone le.. haiz... -_-

Daddy, pls hang on!!!

(07/04) Went to visit dad with shiling n teck.. was very sad when we saw him lying on e bed so restless... he couldn't eat or drink anymore.. waiting for his final day.. i'm really very sad.. Thks shiling for always being there for me... frens for life!!!

wtf u wan???

Well, it's been quite some time since i update my blog le... Been busy with work n my dad... He's no longer being able to consume any food n drinks which caused him to get weaker n more paler.. Heart really sinks when i visit him to realise he's in that state now.. i really wonder how are we gg to get by if he suddenly left us one of e days? really sad... -.-


Haiz... really dunno wat did i really do to provoke her again.. no matter wat i've done, doesnt seems to get her good views. yet instead always trying to find fault with me again n again.. i can see that she's showing favoritism towards those with higher sales.. so those who are not dun deserve to be human beings issit?? den y not just transfer us out better?? why?? when i speak to her in a polite tone, why must she reply me in such a harsh one instead? i wondered do i owe her $$$ or wat to deserve this from her?? since she does not appreciate wat i have done, y should i still continue to do all those stupid fucking tasks? when area managers or operation managers were in, she will try very hard to get into their good books, signalled us this n that... so damn fake!!!


Yet when there's really some problems between staffs, all she do is as us to settle ourselves. and aso when there's some issue with customers, she aso ask us to handle... for fuck we need her as a manager for? i thought our job scoop is to serve customers,replenish stocks, do cashiering when cashiers not ard, and sweep + mop??? den now we need to handle all sorts of matters by ourselves?? den hire her as a manager is to scold us for nth, depending on her mood issit? Life's really been very damn unfair!!! i seriously no longer can take all her nonsense fucking attitude. i really need a transfer, if not a new work environment...

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(29/03)went to visit dad this afternoon, he appeared much more thinner than last time again... whole body was so weak tat he can hardly lift up his hands... very bad... 


late evening time meet up with grace, corine, lai ling n dim for ktv at bugis to have a farewell for corine since she's leaving us for another outlet... cant bear for her to leave but no choice.. haix....

bad day...

(25/03) Sales had been very bad for this past few days, yet got to be so stressed by her again.. whenever our sales are bad, she's definitely be showing us her black face... very sian... -.-    

At around 8pm, she started to stress us again by telling us that she still need another $500 more to round up to 6K so that she could skip texting sms to our boss.. but at tat period of time, e whole shop was just like ghost town with just 2-3 customers only.. some more they have very low buying power.. and tats when she started to warn us tat she die die wan to do a 6k, else she is not gg to close e shop.. every cust who walked in sure we will followed up all e way n tried our very best to link more sales, but buying power was just not there, and she even saw it with her very own eyes.. 

 At around 10.10pm den she got no choice but to close the shop cos totally dun have any customers walking in at all le.. WTH, everytime when our sales are bad, she only knew how to stress us, show us black face n attitude pro... who in this world dun wan $$$???? really very sian w her fucking bad attitude le.. really hope to get transferred out soon... -.-

Off Day FiNaLLy....

(23/03) meet up with ivy for shopping again... went to taka there to look for amelyn n aso spent a total of nearly $200 on cosmetics at her side there.. den meet up with kat after her work, continue shopping again and bought a bag n some clothes at zara... den went for our dinner after that... its been a long time since we meet up like this le since everyone had been busy with work...

dental day.....

Early morning ard 8am went to standby queue for dental appt cos everyday sure fully packed one, really dun understand why... Den e receptionist ask me to go back rest 1st n come back maybe 2hours later cos still got 6pax in front of me... And guess wat, when i returned after 2hours, i was still waiting all e way until 1245 -.-


Till now is already nearly 7pm le yet e bleeding still doesn't stop n e pain was there... wanted to take e prescribed painkiller, but den can only take after meal... like that how to eat my meal...aiyo.....

Gastric Pain Attack!!!

(13/03) Having shop meeting early in e morning at 8.30... everyone's having e same big breakfast at shop before meeting starts.. yet i immediately can feel my stomach is not right... during meeting i feel quite upset, i thought maybe is too full or wat cos just a while not comfortable... immediately after lunch, the kind of upset feeling came back again n this time is much more intense n i can sense quite serious cos i cant even stand straight.. no choice got to rest in e office.. luckily i finish work at 6 immediately chiong home n rest.. initially gg to meet up w jess to visit my dad, but cos of this end up i got to stay at home n rest... -_-

emoing foe the whole day!!!!

(10/03)Start work le... Haiz... totally no mood to work, cannot really concentrate during work at all.. i still feel very emo... when at work, all my mind had been thinking abt dad.. i really wonder how is he right now.. really worried abt him alot.. i was even thinking abt applying for 1mth's unpaid so that i can visit him more often, but mum object to my suggestion cos i will be even more sad n emo if dad happen to pass away, i will surely cant be able to take it n wont be able to resume work after that 1mth, so is better to carry on with work, so that when im busy at work, i wont be thinking so much.. she do have her point here.. just that i really cant bear for dad to leave us soon... really very emo for e whole day... haiz... upon looking at e whole month's schedule, it made me more sian cos i saw that i need to work 13days before i got another off...very shag.. -_-

whole day at hospital...

Went to bring food to dad early in e morning cos ard afternoon period e hospital side is gg to transfer dad to mount alvernia hospice for treatment since they were more concentrated in his illness. when reached there, doctor came to examine him n den chat with me to update abt his condition.. realized that he has left with only a few weeks time, if not e longest might not be over 3mths since his condition has actually weaken for so much... now we really have to make use of his remaining time to make him happier...

visiting dad...

(07/03)Went to visit dad with mum n hao this evening.. awhile after we reached, my uncle aso reached.. 10mins later, my mum's side grandma n my cousins they all aso reached, but cannot came up due to overhead count le since max only 4persons for visiting.. so hao, renjie n i stayed at e foodcourt instead, while e rest of e relatives went up to visit dad.. ard half an hour later, we went to register again, this time successfully let us go up..lol... everyone was quite shocked to see dad become like that cos he used to be bubbly n yet now shrink till all bones... -_-

At 7+, ivy, xiu n her hubby came to visit dad as well.. at that time e nurse was giving medicine to him... after applying medicine for e nostrils, i could see that dad was very miserable, until he began to drop tears cos he say he cant breathe at all...very miserable... as if gg to die!!! very sad to see his expression like this...

(05/03) Went to visit dad togther with mum, hao n teck... before reaching his ward, social worker came to talk to us regarding my dad.. she told us that dad had actually shared with her alot of things which we all don't even know...


Dad had shared with her he's quite regret that he didn't really have much time to communicate with us again cos all along since we were young, he used to be very stern n strict with us, which results that we seldom share our feelings with him, instead we were much more closer with our mum.. he also shared that last time when he was still a taxi driver, almost every week he will drove us ard to eat n etc.. he said that he really missed those happy moments.. when we heard all these, we really cannot control our tears... all these things dad had never shared with us at all n we didn't even realise that he had actually enjoyed every moments of it.. even when im relating this to my blog now, i still can't control my tears again..


When we went in dad's ward, i noticed something is not quite right... i noticed that he was very pale n restless as compared to e past few days.. and when talk to him, he will either no response, or if not dunno wat he is talking abt.. i also noticed that he keeps staring straight at e wall as if someone is up there.. ask him issit can see those things, he refused to say.. yesterday when visit him he was never like tat one... yet today is totally different.. And also, he even request mum tmr to cook for him his fav food... 

When gg to e toilet outside e ward there, i experienced something unusual too...while waiting outside e toilet for mum, e whole area became very windy, as if is at outdoor... funny thing is that e whole place was air-conditioned, how can there be strong wind? i am still trying to figure out with mum... unexplained...

Now, i seriously hoped hard for miracle to happen to my dad to recover even if it requires me to shorten my lifespan also worth it... i been praying hard for him... i really hope that all of my prayers will be answered....

FrEnS 4eVa!!!

(04/03) Meet up with Shiling for k lunch at plaza n k till 2+ before meeting up with dehong.. Den went to mall pharmacy to help dad to get some items instructed by e doc.. Den head towards Shiling's place n stay till 4+ before gg to visit dad along with Teck. Dad's appetite did not improve cos he just ate only a couple of spoonfuls for his dinner.. but could see that he looks much better alot as compared to days ago.. i really hope miracle could happen to cease off his sickness n to return him back his normal health.. i have been praying very hard for it to happen.. 


Well, it's really been a very long time since i really enjoyed myself.. Gal, we shall meet up soon for k again.. and dehong, look forward to meeting up soon.. Frens, (u know who u are...) Thanks so much n really appreciates for always being here for me n lending me ur listening ears.. thanks alot for trying to console me n also to brainwash my negative thoughts.. i promise i will take very good care of myself in order to take care of my family too.. Frens forever!!! (^.*)

To keep on praying is all that i can do now...

(02/03) Claimed 3 hours from work to visit dad w 2 bros... when we reach there, i was very shocked n heart pain to see dad cos is just been only 4days i nv see him yet he changed so much!!! 

This time i really feel like crying cos my heart feels very pain to see dad like this... So i went to called up S to ask whether possible to grant me 2 days unpaid so that i can spent more time with him... in e end, request granted.. 

So e 3 of us accompanied dad till 8+ den went back by cab... 

Upon nearing to our hse, nearly had an accident cos suddenly got a lorry wanted to cut into our lane, yet cab uncle refused to budge n end up both of them crashed each other's side by side... whose fault issit? 

What an unlucky day we have!!! -.- 

When reached home, 3 of us really sat down for e 1st time to discuss n plan wat we are gg to do in future... Teck & i actually cried as we chatted along... we were so emo...

What should i do???

Seeing you yelling in pain & suffering in agony yet there's totally nth i could do... I feel i'm so damn useless!!!! -.-

HappY B|rThDaY To mE......

(24/02)Happy Birthday to me!! Been staying at home e whole afternoon replying msg at fb, doin some housework n taking care of dad.. his health is detoriating n become more worse.. today i keep seeing him having very bad breathing difficulties.. i very scared he might just pass away like that due to breathing difficulties... den he keep telling me that he wan to die away cos he's feeling very uncomfortable.. he feel like jumping off e building right away... im very scared he will really do that.. really very scared.. i been praying for him most of e time.. i really hope all e gods can really save him away from his illness n return him back his health.. my heart feels real pain when i saw him being reduced to bones now.. 


Late evening time went to meet up with jas n sebas for dinner at toa payoh.. den head towards loyang temple to pray for my dad's health n aso my work cos been very suay recently... so many things crop up for me... very sian.. nobody is able to understand how hard im gg thru right now.. i really have to control my emotions at work... 


Saw boonheng n jess at loyang too.. Friends, i will be strong n positive... no worries k... mucks!! ^.*

WTF??? I had enough of it le!!!!!

(21/02) Damn pissed off at work for e whole afternoon shift, made me no mood to eat... till now reach home den start my lunch cum dinner n supper... Very MAD!!!!!!


On 18th late evening, i served celine for nearly an hour, which her transaction breaks down into 3 due to $88 instant dip. 1st 2 transaction S do for me, i stand beside to pack all e items den pass e whole big bag to celine. den i tried to ask her to top up another $5++ to get free facial. In e end, she took a sparkling mask n a pack of shavers which totals up $60++


Since she's already helping me to close tat transaction, so i went into e office to take some samples for celine. during tat time when i was away from cashier, she finish with it n placed that bag of mask n shavers on e cashier top at pos2 cos celine was just beside it. den she start to do other cust's bills at pos1.. when i came out from office, i straight away pass those samples to celine, n b4 she went off, i still ask to make sure if all her items were with her, celine told me ya, everyting's w her den. 


(20/02)2days later, celine called me to say that e mask n shaver were not with her at all, she wondered issit she left it here or wat, so i went to check up CCTV to make sure.. in e end i realized that she did forgotten to take that bag, left it at cashier top. instead fatty m went to pass to her cust.. SHIT!!! is she crazy or wat?? her cust only purchased a small accessory worth a few dollars only, do she need a bigger carrier for that? y she never even check e items inside? some more how heavy can a small accessory weigh? stupid right? 


Today during briefing, S say that we need to pay for that 2 items worth $60++ by hook or by crook. she wanted fatty m n i to settle this matter among ourselves n give her a solution by tonight close door, either one has to pay, if not split among both of us.. If u were me, wat will u do? will u pay or not to pay? 


After work, S come to me for solution.. i told her neither of us had discuss. i told S no way am i gg to pay for it cos i feel that im totally not at fault at all. Y should i pay a cent? my jobscoop is to serve cust, bring them to cashier for payment and tats all.. my jobscoop is not to follow up w cust all e way to cashier, help them cash in, UNLESS we do not have cashier den we do ourselves. and aso my jobscoop doesn't need me to pass things to cust even though already got cashier helping to close transaction.. so does it mean im still at fault n need to take up responsibilty to pay back e sum just becos celine is my cust, i been serving her for nearly an hour n breaks her transaction into 3 receipts? this is aso contributes as part of e causes that celine left out that bag? i dun tink so leh.. yet this sentence was told to me by my very dear S.. very obviously sounded wan to shift e entire blame to me right? haha..she even told me that, no matter wat, just settle among e both of u, dun involve me in.. wow..like that aso can meh? i tot as our superior, u should have help us in problem solving n aso to settle disputes among staffs? yet this superior is exactly doin e opposite.. she only do e right thing when HER superior is here for shop visit. she wanted HER superior to see e good side of her, e good side of this outlet.. for me, no comment.. -.-     and if really wan to find e actual culprit, shouldn't S played a role too? cos lack of communication.. e time when i come out from office, she should have inform me tat e pack of products belong to my cust, den e rest i must handle it myself le ma.. but she never lor.. if wan to ask to compensate, S n fatty m should bear for it k, this is my own opinion.. 


I had been tolerating with her nonsense n attitude for mths till i find tat i really cannot work under her anymore... i tink is really time for me to source for better job opportunity.. no matter how hard i did try to improve, she will never appreciates on my effort, instead i get sarcastic remarks from her.. absolutely no motivation at all... seriously very tired with all these... i need a break... VOLCANO EXPLODES!!!!!!! 

for my dad ♥ ♥ ♥ i love you so much ...dont give up hope!!

No matter what, we are never going to give up on u n ur treatments... Please hang on to e max!!!

emo......

Dad's health is getting worse again..now he keep telling us that his whole body feels very pain n he aso gets breathless easily.. i really dunno what to do now.. i'm just very scared and worried.. i'm very scared that he might just left us suddenly.....

HaPPy LuNaR NeW YeAr.....

Had a great dinner this yr cos mostly vegetarians due to my dad cant really take seafood all these... Though its a simple fare, to me is very heart-warming n cosy cos everyone was here eating together at e round table...


After dinner, den continue with our spring cleaning again... Discarded alot of unwanted things.. lol.... 

HoT dAy...

Had a great yet tiring n hot day out with shiling..Went chinatown with her to look for abalone cos she wanted to buy for her bf's mum, den we shop around for some cny goodies. After that, head to cityhall cos she needed to collect her online purchases, den we began to shop around that area too... wat a hot n tiring day for us... ^_*

s|cK and g|ddY..... -.-

Had been feeling sick since yesterday during work.. Feel so giddy n as if going to faint anytime... I knew i'm gg to get sick for sure le... -.-


Visited e doctor early in e morning n was given a day's mc.. Den been resting n rotting at home for e whole day... -.-

OuT|nG!!!

Meeting up with jasmine for our hairdo at amk... Very crowded at e saloon when we reached in e afternoon.. Chosen light ash brown tone, but den e lady boss mixed a darker tone for me.. Though i dun really fancy it, but it does looks very healthy..


Went far east plaza to collect my eyelashes, phone charger and bought 2 tank tops there b4 proceeding to wisma.. Bought a pair of shoes at Trois+inch..

Then, meet up with amelyn, jean n ivy at shaw for dinner.. Everyone commented that i had slimmed down really alot.. still got another 2more kgs to go..hee..^_*

Clubbing Session w my beloved CoLLs...

Just back from clubbing at various places.. After work, went down V3 with amelyn, karen and grace cos jac was working there too.. 


Had alot of fun at V3 though it was quite bored over there... cos jac's 2 bosses kept entertaining us.. After a while, we went to zirca, shanghai dolly and lunar to club.. Had quite alot of fun cos its been very long since i club le... Look forward to another clubbing session with u gals again.. cheers!!!

i'm very scared now...

Heard from mum that my dad been mumbling e whole day that he was going to leave us soon... i knew he was talking rubbish... i really dun wan that to happen so soon and im very scared... really dunno how to handle it... haiz...

Dad, I Love You...

Been looking at my dad for e whole day, my heart feel very pain when i saw him getting thinner n weaker day by day... And i even heard that he had already chosen a photo to use for his funeral... Even doctors also told my mum n i to get ourselves mentally prepared that he might just left us suddenly cos his condition is really getting worse as days goes by.. i still haven ask e whole family members for a family photo, cos i wan to keep for memory... i even tried my very best to be home every day after work, just to spend all my time with him while i can.. 


There's bound to have relatives coming up to visit him almost everyday. Everybody knew abt his condition. I really dun wan my dad to leave us so early.. i really cant bear for it to really happen n i totally cant accept this fact till this very day cos it all happen just too fast... Looking at him getting weaker yet there's nth i can do to help him.. i feel im really very helpless.. i knew my dad got alot of tings to say, but somehow he remained quiet..

Off DaY AgA|n...

Early morning meeting up with huiling, lisar n her lil one to bugis temple praying for my dad's condition... Den head towards far east plaza for our eyelash extension... Hmmm...e results are good, still got rooms for improvements cos i wanted a really thicker n longer effect!!! 


After doing our lashes, we actually bought a new handset w cartoon characters... Both of them got a pooh while mine a kitty... But when i reach home, i realized that e man had actually forgotten to put in charger for me... end up i got to go back on my next off day again...sian... -.-'''


Finally managed to get my ideal #302 lipstick from anna sui cos been to a few counters but all sold out... and bought 2 tank tops from MNG... total spending of $200++....

Today was his birthday, and i suppose his frens would probably be celebrating for him at pub right now... We have been through really alot for e past few yrs, though we have been breaking up n patching back for numerous times, but i do feel that we still do care for each other after so long... I still wan to wish him a "happy birthday".....

God Bless!!!!

This morning was very glad n relieved to hear from my dad that he was able to discharge tmr cos there were no signs of cells being spread to his brain after several scannings were done... My heart really feel lightened up after hearing this, and e 1st 2 persons i shared with was huiling & shiling.. They had been thru with me during my ups & downs.. Really appreciates for what they have done for me.. God bless!! (^_*)

God, please save my father.....

Was very sad after hearing from doctor that my dad had to admit into e ward again... They suspected that the cancer cells had spread to his brain tats y need to stay in under observation... Doctor says that if e cells are being spread, my dad's life could be in danger n he might be leaving us real soon... i really dun wan all these to happen... When can all this stupid tings be really over?? i really dun wan all my loved ones to leave me one by one... i really cant take it!!!!

@ ice pub...

After work, meet up with shiling, huiling, sasa & ervin at ice pub.. Today was very crowded due to its near weekend, and partly aso because is boss' bday...


Didn't really drink much due to my skin allergy, but was quite enjoyable cos most of the regulars there were very friendly to get along..


Managed to snap a few pics for lisar's bb cos he had been hyper active.. He was really such a very cute boy. The more i look at him, e more i'm fond of him.. He melts my heart.. Haha!!

MooDy... -.-

 

Argggg... Think recently i have been drinking too much le, now my skin kena so allergied... My face is now hyper sensitive till break out very jia lat and very itchy now... 


Jia lat now... can't even put on my make up at all cos dun seems to absorb really well than normal... very upset now...

QuoTe of the DaY!!!

ArE yOu RuNN|nG to sOmeTh|nG yOu wAnT, oR aWaY fRoM sOmeTh|nG yOu'Re aFrA|d to wAnT???

SoMet|mEs, pEopLe cHooSe to leAvE noT bEcaUsE of seLf|sH rEAsOnS, buT bECaUsE tHeY kNoW tHaT th|nGs w|LL gEt wOrSe if tHeY sTaY...

It |s BeTTer to bE hUrT bY TrUtH ThAn cOmFoRtEd bY L|eS...

Do nOt bEg aNyOne wHo hAs LeFt yOu to cOmE bAcK, foR yOuR DesT|nY is nEvEr T|Ed to aNyOnE tHaT LeFt...

WhAt's mEaNt to be w|LL aLwAyS f|nD a wAy tOgEtHeR...

3 Lings & 2 Mins....

Last evening after work meet up with huiling, shiling, huimin and shimin for dinner and drinks...


Initially planning to go timbre but unfortunately it closed for e day.. So we end up at Paulaner Munchen for our dinner and their own brewery.

Really enjoyed being with u gals... Looking forward to meet up again... ChEErS!!!

LoVe QuoTe of the DaY!!!

爱 情是每个人学习旅程最难懂的一课.每个人学习的时间都不同,得到的知识也不一样.爱情这一课不能死背,只能靠感觉.有人害怕不及格,所以不敢尝试,有人自 信满满却伤得很深.没有人能逃过这一课,否则你永远不会及格.爱情这一课没有教学课本只能亲身体验,没有快速读法只能用一生慢慢的去摧摩.也许有人会 问:"什么时候才能知道自己是否及格?"很遗憾!只能等你走完今世的那一刻,才是成绩放榜的时候...

LoVe QuoTe!!!

To FaLL in LoVe is AwFuLLy s|mpLe, BuT to FaLL OuT of LoVe is s|mpLy AwFuL!!!

3 Lings....

Just back from meeting up with huiling & shiling..

Meet both gals after they finish their work den straight went to far east plaza to collect my lashes which i've reserved on last sat.. But very disappointed to learn that they never keep aside for me.. Made a wasted trip there.. Sorry gals.. -.-

So we went to DFS just to see some bags.. End up spending a total of $200++ on cosmetic pdts... Bought an Anna Sui blusher, a Dior loose powder & a bot of Dior Addict2 fragrance.. Long time din really enjoy shopping like that le..

Settled our dinner at xing wang cafe at kovan there... So so full now...